Family, Life, Pictures


I have a baby now. This event has changed me in a lot of ways.

For example, I can no longer remember irregular past tense verbs—they get conjugated just like the rest of ’em. One time I said, “I waked up at 3am,” and Nathanael had to point out my error. The other day I said, “I already shaked it,” and I KNEW in my heart that something was wrong, but it took me an entire second to figure out what it was. That’s like a decade in editor years.

But besides that, I’ve gotten a much needed dose of humility (but obviously I have a long way too go if I’m still quantifying my own humility). I say, “Good job,” when a certain someone toots instead of reprimanding him. A smile has become the most wonderful thing on the planet.

I’ve never been a fan of newborns, but I am a fan of this one!! Not to mention the man holding him.

M and N

Trying in vain to get him to look in the mirror instead of at the lights.

Marius faces
Everyone should be a mom. And if you can’t be a mom, be a dad.

I mean, it’s a struggle sometimes but a good struggle. It just wouldn’t make sense if keeping another human being alive and teaching them everything (we’re talking everything, people) they need to know weren’t at least a little hard. However, hard things yield greater rewards. I’m thinking exercise, reading scriptures every day, peeling fresh garlic, dating, practicing a skill, detangling curly hair, making friends in a new place, acquiring Christlike attributes, getting through the Waterloo chapter in Les Mis, etc. etc.

Okay, you get the idea. The end.

Dreams, Family, Life, Marriage

Staying at Home

If you think about it, it’s pretty amazing to have one person completely enable all of your dreams in life.Handsome NathanaelYou want a gorgeous, hardworking, funny, golden-hearted husband? Here I am. You want an eternal marriage? Same here, let’s do it. You want to live in a flat in London and do makeup for and/or play Christine in The Phantom of the Opera at the Her Majesty’s Theatre? Umm. . . (Okay, maybe not ALL of my dreams. I dream big.)

So obviously one of my ambitions is to be a mother and nobody’s employee or boss, not even my own. I make a terrible boss of myself.

You should work.

But I don’t want to.

You’re a terrible person.

I know, I am, which makes me too depressed to work.

So that’s where Nathanael comes in.

Job interview

Off to one of his second-round interviews.

This human being is going to work every day for the rest of his life so I don’t have to. (Well, let’s be honest, I’m going to be working freaking hard, but it’s a very different field.) In fact, on our first date he told me that one of his goals was to make enough money so that his wife could be a stay-at-home mother. (He also prefaced that statement by saying he didn’t want to offend me, and in my mind I was like, Offend me? Marry me!)

I just finished my last job hopefully ever—unless Disney wants to hire me to be a princess—and I have never felt so liberated! Being in the workforce has never been fulfilling to me, and that’s not for the lack of good jobs with fantastic people (Jenn, Jeff, Dennis, Annette, Chani, David, Lisa, Sarah, Jess, Estee, Anne, and so many more). Let it also be known that I hugely admire people who work hard and build their careers.


My last job was teaching adorable children like this robotics (don’t ask), so it’s not like I’ve been doing slave labor here.

But I’m FREE!

I know this opportunity doesn’t come to everyone who wants it (or hasn’t come yet), so I’m just really grateful that it’s my turn (T minus 6 weeks until baby).

Gospel, Life

No Higher Tribute

About a week and a half ago, my Church held its global meeting called General Conference. But wait! Don’t go! Even if you’re not a member, these powerful messages can touch and heal you. Start with the first session (there are six) by clicking here.

But if there is one message that I would recommend to any person to watch, it would be that of Elder Jeffrey R. Holland. This guy is famous for his amazing talks, but this one truly is special, even for him. I’ve never heard anything more powerful about womanhood. Ever. Period.

If you’ve ever had doubts about the Church’s teachings about women, watch this. Don’t listen to the naysayers who whisper lies that the Church or God doesn’t value women as much as men just because the distribution of administrative roles or perceived power seems imbalanced to you. Listen to Jeffrey R. Holland preach the real feelings of the Apostles and Jesus Christ about how powerful a woman can be (and this can apply to any woman who mothers in any sense of the word, not just those who have born their own genetic children):

To all of our mothers everywhere, past, present, or future, I say, “Thank you. Thank you for giving birth, for shaping souls, for forming character, and for demonstrating the pure love of Christ.” To Mother Eve, to Sarah, Rebekah, and Rachel, to Mary of Nazareth, and to a Mother in Heaven, I say, “Thank you for your crucial role in fulfilling the purposes of eternity.” . . . In fact, you are saviors on Mount Zion, and like the Master you follow, your love ‘never faileth.’ ” I can pay no higher tribute to anyone.

Oh boy, that talk made me excited for motherhood! Not so much the shopping and decorating and parties (although I do realize people generally have a lot more fun with those things than I do, but that’s why my husband calls me the Grinch of babies).

If this subject matter doesn’t interest you, here are some other speeches that were stellar (click on the phrases below):

On being happy . . . 

On why the Church seems to be run by a lot of old guys . . .

On the reason we have commandments . . .

On being guided by the Holy Spirit . . .

On improving ourselves one thing at a time . . .

These talks were totally restorative to me. I am at peace again :).

Gospel, Quotes

Blogging Devotion

This post may be rhetorically worthless, but on this the Sabbath day I wanted to share some blogs that have greatly increased my faith. Isn’t it crazy how a blog can do that? You’ll understand if you take a look at these, though.


Desiring God:
I LOVE THIS BLOG. Let’s just say, that if the Gospel hadn’t been restored, I would want to join this church (probably because they believe in nearly the same principles as the LDS church teaches). This blog has not yet failed to refresh my faith. Some favorites:

I will admit, I don’t read every post he puts up, simply because they are all somewhat similar. However, here are some favorites that say everything I feel, or want to feel:

This awesome Christian woman blows me away sometimes. She seems to really understand the most important things, like motherhood. Here’s a good post to get you started: Late Night Accusations.

71 Toes:
The mom who write this blog completely changed my attitude about motherhood. Obviously she puts up a lot of posts that are just journal entries about things they’ve done lately, but when she gets to writing her thoughts, they are always inspiring! I tried to find this post I read a few years ago about nature that was simply amazing, but I can’t :(. Just search around through this blog and you’ll find something fantastic.

A Couple of Love Birds:
I think everyone who has ever met the author of this one openly or secretly adores her blog. She just gets it, especially on subjects like motherhood.

Calendar Girl:
Obviously, because Kenzie is one of my best friends, I can see her faith spilling out of her words. But I think you’ll see it, whether you know her or not, in posts like this: On Womanhood.

Even though it’s not my place, I would encourage you (and me) to fill our minds with goodness. We all know we’re gonna read blogs no matter what, so why not trade “reading” some of those blogs that are only ever about what the author is wearing or perfectly photographed parties she’s thrown and take a look at some of these gems? Or at least pay more attention to the blogs written by people we actually care about, and not for what they’re wearing? Thanks for giving mine the time of day, by the way! And if you have any hidden treasures that I don’t know about, please share!